Tuesday, August 14, 2012

On the first night of Alpha I had decided that I would say nothing during this whole course, but after the first night you couldn't shut me up. The class would watch a video of this guy from England, where this course originated, and he would talk about who Jesus was and is, and every time I had a question about what he said, he had an answer in his next sentence. I learned a lot about Jesus, and about the Holly Spirit and what the Holly Spirit Does and how I can be filled By the Holly Spirit. On the last day of the last weekend we had a retreat we went to, and that is where I had learned about the Holly Spirit, the pastor who led the course and who also became a very close friend and mentor was asking if anyone would like to pray to ask the Holly Spirit to come into their life, and for whatever reason I could not bring myself to ask. At the end of the night we went home and I was so disappointed in myself for not praying that I could not sleep. My daughter was not feeling well and wanted to sleep with mommy and since I couldn't sleep, I let her. I was sitting on the couch in the dark, and I just started talking. I wasn't sure who I was talking to and I can't really remember what was said, but next thing I know I am being woken up by my daughter. I usually sleep with a C-PAP machine and when I don't use it I am very grumpy in the morning because it is like I don't sleep at all. My daughter wanted to play a little game we used to play when she was very little, but my wife warned that daddy might be a little grumpy, but we played our game and I felt like I slept better than I ever have. As I started to get ready for church that day and something was different, I felt this tingling in my stomach, not really sure how to explain it. I was feeling joyous, I had this inner peace that I had never felt before. everyone at church had noticed a change in me and was commenting about how happy I looked, I had this smile on my face that just would not go away. I was filled with the Holly Spirit, I was filled with love and joy. My life has been changed forever, I am a better husband, a better father, and a better person. Being a follower of God does not make your problems go away, but knowing that he is with me every step I take makes it easier to deal with my problems. I have become a Christian and it has changed my life in such ways that no one can believe what it has done for me. The joy and comfort I feel is so very hard to explain, but I want everyone to feel it. I want to share with the World what I now know. I want people to know the love that Jesus has for each and everyone us, and know that Christ died on the cross for all of our sins so that we could be with Him. May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make his face shine upon you, and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace. Amen........

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

We liked this Church we had found and decided to become members. One of the first people we met was a lady who would help us through the process of becoming members. She asked about our membership from our other church and we found out that she was the sister of one of the ladies from our other church who had been in love with our daughter. Out of all the churches we could have gone to, we find this one with a connection to my first church, it just had to be coincidence right? Anyway, we became members and our daughter started going to Sunday school, and my wife became a Sunday school shepard and they both were becoming involved in the church while I was sitting on the sidelines watching and being a ''pew warmer." It felt to me like something was missing in my life, but I couldn't put a finger on it. My wife was trying to get me involved with things going on at the church, but I was too busy or tired from work. I wanted my weekends to relax and rest for the work week ahead, and then all of the sudden I had no work week anymore, I had been laid off and my life was turned upside down. I was unemployed with nowhere to turn and no idea how I was going to provide for my family. My wife had become a real estate agent and property manager, so I took all of our savings and got licensed and bonded to do maintenance on her rental properties, but that was only a small supplement to my unemployment. Things were getting tough, we were struggling to make our mortgage payment let alone all of our other bills, we thought we were going to loose our house. Then on one of the days I went to church I heard about this course called Alpha. The Alpha Course covers the basics of Christianity and answers questions about Jesus and who he was. I asked my wife if she would like to take this course, and she said she had been trying to get me to take this course for a long time. So we signed up for the course, and by the end, my life had been changed in ways no one, not even myself would have ever guessed. My daughter who is 10 now says I was once Saul and now I am Paul.