Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Where Will He Lead Me?

As I grow stronger in my faith I have felt called to lead, or teach, or maybe just help people who need it in some way. I thought at first that I was definitely being called to become a pastor, but as I started to go that direction doors were closed and paths were blocked. So I prayed to God to show me the way He wanted me to go.

 I prayed about it 2 or 3 times a day for about a week when a friend of mine, who was a Stephen Minister, told me that my church was going to have a Stephen Ministry training course. I thought this was God's answer to my prayer, that it was the helping people part I was being called to.

 I enrolled in the class and went through all the training and became a Stephan Minister. Everything was going great, or so I thought. My life was too busy, I wasn't spending anytime with my family and they missed me. I was doing things selfishly, for my own joy.

When my wife had expressed her feelings I blamed Stephen Ministry, that it was the over the line on my time away from family, so I walked away, which disappointed a lot of People, including me. I kept doing the earthly things that I thought made me happy, but took me away from the things that truly make me happy, God, and my family. Don't get me wrong, I still play, but I do it differently. I make sure I spend time with God and my family, because they are the 2 most important things in my life.

I have been spending a lot more time with God, trying to open up my heart a really listen to Him. I have gone back to Stephen Ministry, and also been asked to help lead a book study on a series of discipleship training books I have studied. I have also been asked to talk about my faith journey to the AOB students at my church. For some reason that one has me a little nervous.

 I know, I just threw it out there for the whole world to see right here on this blog, but typing at a computer screen and talking in front of a bunch of teenagers is different. We will see what happens, maybe that teaching thing is still around. I am just keeping my heart open so I can here and see where He will lead me next.