On the first night of Alpha I had decided that I would say nothing during this whole course, but after the first night you couldn't shut me up. The class would watch a video of this guy from England, where this course originated, and he would talk about who Jesus was and is, and every time I had a question about what he said, he had an answer in his next sentence.
I learned a lot about Jesus, and about the Holly Spirit, and what the Holly Spirit Does and how I can be filled By the Holly Spirit. On the last day of the last weekend we had a retreat we went to, and that is where I had learned about the Holly Spirit,
The pastor who led the course, and who had also became a very close friend and mentor, was asking if anyone would like to pray and ask the Holly Spirit to come into their life, and for whatever reason I could not bring myself to ask. Maybe because I still felt unworthy.
At the end of the night we went home and I was so disappointed in myself for not praying that I could not sleep. My daughter was not feeling well and wanted to sleep with mommy, and since I couldn't sleep, I let her. I was sitting on the couch in the dark, and I just started talking. I wasn't sure who I was talking to and I can't really remember what was said, but next thing I know I am being woken up by my daughter.
I usually sleep with a C-PAP machine and when I don't use it I am very grumpy in the morning because it is like I don't sleep at all. My daughter wanted to play a little game we used to play when she was very little, but my wife warned that daddy might be a little grumpy, but we played our game and I felt like I slept better than I ever have.
As I started to get ready for church that day something was different, I felt this tingling in my stomach, not really sure how to explain it. I was feeling joyous, I had this inner peace that I had never felt before. everyone at church had noticed a change in me and was commenting about how happy I looked, I had this smile on my face that just would not go away,
I was filled with the Holly Spirit, I was filled with love and joy. My life has been changed forever, I am a better husband, a better father, and a better person. Being a follower of God does not make your problems go away, but knowing that He is with me every step I take, makes it easier to deal with my problems.
I have become a Christian and it has changed my life in such ways that no one can believe what it has done for me. The joy and comfort I feel is so very hard to explain, but I want everyone to feel it. I want to share with the World what I now know. I want people to know the love that Jesus has for each and everyone us, and know that Christ died on the cross for all of our sins so that we could be with Him.
May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make his face shine upon you, and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace. Amen........